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Mon, Sep. 5th, 2011, 02:28 am

Alright. I'll admit. I'm better off without the bitch.

I want to be in WA again so, so badly. I was recently there visiting my cousin, Leia. Idk if you guys remember her.
It was surreal. The mountains, lakes, rivers, the fuckin ocean. It's where I want to be. Hell, it's where I want to die.

No, really. If I had died right then, I wouldn't have given a shit. Well, it probably would've put a huge damper on our trip and all, but it would've been okay in the end.

At the age of 25, I think I've finally found out who I am and what I want to be. No, that doesn't mean I've found what I want to do, just the kind of person I should be and actually really look forward to being in the future.

Things really suck but at the same time, I'm okay. I'm good. I'm... happy.

Mon, Sep. 5th, 2011 10:49 am (UTC)

it's good to be happy! :)

I a lways remember leia obv because I sent her that shit load of chocolate lmao. also I follow her on twitter.

Mon, Sep. 5th, 2011 08:16 pm (UTC)

Hey, man. Haven't heard from you in a million years, but if I were to have gotten only one bit of news about you in all this time I'm very glad it's something like this.

Mon, Sep. 5th, 2011 08:18 pm (UTC)

Shit, bro. How have you been? I was just in WA (like the entry says) and went to PAX and shit. Both Mags and I thought of ya!

Tue, Sep. 6th, 2011 04:25 am (UTC)

Awww... You know, by the time I think about PAX every year, it turns out to be too late to register.

Not doing too bad, all things considered. Still employed. Kids doing well. Depression isn't *totally* crippling, and it may be hormonal.

Any real prospects for moving to WA?

Tue, Sep. 6th, 2011 11:22 pm (UTC)

It's a real real possibility but at the same time, I feel like I don't fit in anywhere there.

I know what you mean about depression. I mean, I feel okay but at the same time, my therapist says I need to seek more .... idk the word. Better treatment I guess. Because borderline personality disorder is starting to leak through manic depression and "that's a bad cocktail" haha!

Glad to know the kids are well, friend. Just stay diligent and know that the badges usually go on sale very late april to early may and sell out super early june.

Tue, Sep. 6th, 2011 02:08 am (UTC)

it's so great to see you looking and sounding so happy!

How is Leia doing? I'd love to hear about how things are going for her.

Tue, Sep. 6th, 2011 02:09 am (UTC)

I'm not sure when the last time you talked to her was.

Hmm.. Right now she is a 7th grade science teacher, married to the most awesome guy ever (he WORKS FOR XBOX OK!?)

Ummm.. Happy. They live in a house. Pretty fuckin good for her, actually!

Tue, Sep. 6th, 2011 11:50 am (UTC)

I don't know when the last time I talked to her was either! A long time ago. I do think I knew she was married or getting married. I'm happy for her!

What about you -- are you thinking about making plans to go back to Washington? I've actually never spent any time in the Pacific Northwest and I really want to.

Tue, Sep. 6th, 2011 11:23 pm (UTC)

I am definitely going to go back. My mom always loved it out there and over in Montana, too, when we lived there.

So I really feel a connection to it. I also love the fact that she adored visiting Leia's father (her brother) and now the next generation (me and her) are close and visiting one another. There's just a real nice connection and awesome how it all comes together.

The only problem is, I really really feel like I don't fit in as much as I love it!

Tue, Sep. 6th, 2011 11:24 pm (UTC)

& look at me, still as self-centered as always. How have you been?

Wed, Sep. 7th, 2011 10:07 pm (UTC)

good! back in school, being a dork. glad to see/hear you so happy though, that's really great! keep following your bliss....